There is freedom in exposure and power in written word.
I have found that documenting the seemingly mundane occurrences of ordinary days mystically unlocks the riches buried within them. Our lives are masterpieces, mosaics; Divinely composed of single moments- some dark and ominous, others bright and sparkling with promise- each working together to bring about a unique and extraordinary design. We are fashioned with purpose as unique expressions of God to our world. This is my attempt to illuminate and celebrate the various shades of the mosaic of my life.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Birth of a Blog

I have been reeling with thoughts and aching to write, mostly for cathartic release, I think, but finding the time has been difficult. The world of motherhood I’ve entered has entirely different laws than the one I knew before. It demands that I lose my “self” and the egotistical ways that once served me. I am no longer my own; my energy and time is dominated by another. I am at the mercy of the whims of a 14-month-old named Jonah. He dictates my days.

I, a lover of words, have shied away from applying language to the intricacies of this season for reasons I don’t fully understand. It seems the deeper me- the one who applies meaning to the mundane and ascribes a sense of purpose to my days- has been buried under a mound of dirty diapers (or drowning in breast milk). I have felt more lost than found in this world. It has taken much longer to reorient my senses than I ever assumed it would.

Solitude, a state I relish and once abundantly knew, seems only to find me in the wee hours of the night. My body and mind are weary from a day full of demand, yet an ache in my soul for the quiet keeps me awake. And on this night, I write. Not only write but birth a blog whose sole purpose is to provide a place to process the splendor and dysfunction of my days and ultimately glimpse Divine purpose in it all . . .

1 comment:

  1. already beautiful. i'm looking forward to following your soulful thoughts. the world is better with your heart in it :)

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